tonite~~

i am sitting in my room,juz got back from watching "Underworld"..well, not gonna comment much on the show tho as i don see it as a very good show either..

Actually..........................

There's some stuff messing with my mind and its really annoying dat when u needed to avoid someone so dat u have time to refresh ur life and breathe,u ended up bumping into each other..at least once in 2 months time. Not on purpose,accidentally.

Fate?

If yes, let it be gone already!!

U've already been haunting me for 1 and a half year and i think its time to finally forget all dats happened in the past..

I hope god can hear me this time..pls, pls don let us meet when we're having the "forgetting" process time..coz its gonna ruin the effort, our effort to set things right.

I appreciate it that u are once a great company and i will still appreciate our friendship if dats what it is.

i love this day~~

As cny is around d corner, i somehow managed to squeeze some time out of my precious "rest day" to finally go and shop around in my favourite mall of all time..heheh

here's some pic

Decoration for the comin ox year!


Hows this compared to the one in MP?? haha


Gotta stop for cake and


coffee!!


thx dear! for making this project a succesful one.


It's weird that i love this place so much..probably it has got it's spell on me.

hmmmm...can't wait for the next trip.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Currently too bz to update and there's not much time to do much stuff either.

Juz wanna wish everybody a great year 2009.

Take Care.

Work hard. Play hard and Rock hard.

Stagnant~

I'm about to go to bed this cold evening..it feels relaxing to spend some time at home with family and the opportunity to crash the sack this early..

After started working, it just seems like everything, every feeling that used to flow inside of me have disappeared. I dont feel emo like i used to be, i dont drink like i used to drink, don't go out till 4 in the morning, don't text the person whom i'm not supposed to text back then, don't watch drama like how i've watched everyday.

Maybe everything i felt have been covered in a corner for the time being as i'm too tired to even try to pick up where i left of. For now, im juz gonna let things fall into place by itself.

Not gonna try to feel the things that i don't feel, and not gonna think of the things that wouldn't happen. Just like a robot, i wake up, work, eat, sleep and work again...until the day i found my feelings back again...


Without wind, without sunshine and without water~


Just stagnant...

Lately~

So many things happened without even realizing the sign of it comin..

First, going back to the office and trying to adapt with the new environment,new culture and new family..well... i'm not gonna comment anythin bout it..juz a routine stuff everybody has to go through..

Secondly, dealing with the leaving of a quitter. Hmm...in our lives, we will meet many that are cruel enough to quit on us even if they know that u needed them..if u thought somebody's reliable, i suggest u give a second thought! Be aware on WHO u rely on! Haha..

guess u cant control people's life huh? well...i guess what/who doesn't kill u makes u stronger..

Sorry that i cant precisely write my story here..maybe its better to have a lil mystery behind it..hehe

Everyone have this story but it depends on which angle u took it from!

Last weekend, me n the girls went to this Karabau cafe located at Jonker Street to watch our manyzer's and TF's performance. No doubt that the environment is very lively probably bcoz that place is full with other performers. Basically we just sat there the whole nite as we were waiting to TEAR the CB (not what u're thinking about ar!) but too bad, rui n i leave early as we have to get up very early the next morning.

N mel make it back on time again to catch this show..very lucky of her..haha..

Din take any pic tho, as it was kinda dark there.. :P

stupid or naive?

For doing the same thing even though u know its wrong and it'll be going nowhere?

For some time, i really realized my mistake and promise myself not to fall in another trap ever again..

but then i let it start all over again willingly without stopping..

Hoping for happiness? maybe.

Or juz looking for excitement in such dull life of mine back then? probably.

Felt being used and then got dumped coz u're worthless anymore? very much.



It's a situation where im being cheated and im also the cheater!

A complicated thing~~

my mistake~~

Sorry for being a softie in dealing this.

Sorry for giving u hope that i'll change.

Sorry for letting u and the people dat have faith in me down.

Sorry...

Sorry for the commitments i have.

Sorry i cannot make u understand my life.

Sorry u cannot see my responsibilities.

Feeling like this~~

Juz like the feeling of writing a new post..

The urge to post something but have nothing much to write about its juz like the feeling to contact somebody but you have nothing to talk about...

So...to call or not to call?

To leave or not to leave Mlk? There's so many things that im gonna miss here..Everything's here and i my heart will never be there.

Pls tell me what to do...

Dont wanna be alone!

emo one!

How many drops of tears i've cried?
.Uncountable.

How frustrated i get from waiting?
.Unmeasurable.

How emo am i facing this situation?
.U Don't Know.

How i differentiate between whats right and wrong of the things i've done?
.I Never.

How i deal with this problem?
.Cups of Poison i down every chance i have.

For Display Only

4 in the morning..

2 days in a row we went home at 4am, looking like a shit face and smelling like we've never been bathed...haha (abit dramatic)

why?

believe me...nothing but a bad reason..



Yes...we drank again...

Actually it was juz a normal outing at 12am..but bcoz of emo-ness filled our head and heart, we decided go to jetty and drink the hell out of us..

We (or i should say them) sit there till 4 to wait for ppl to come and eventually rape and rob us..haha...juz kidding..but i'm glad i'm still alive.

The next nite was a b'day party at this club which i don wanna mention here..
It was the b'day of d bassist of Terra Firma.

The nite started quite boringly bcoz all we can see there is those girls wearing panties n bra,singing and dancing all over d place and get paid hell alot of monayyyyyy...

After dat we were moved into a Karaoke room which was quite fun la...
I dunno why the time fly so quickly that day that we din even realize it was already 4am when we drag the "drinking queen" out of the club.

I'm glad we're sober for 3 days now..after 4 days of drinking..

What's life?