When you feel like you have everything now..

It is just the beginning...

Soon, something will take away what you last time had..

And emptiness and doubts fills you in..

You wish you could just drink and smoke all day till you die..

Coz when it's so hard to fulfill something and you did it but in the end..

Nothin will be the same again..

From last post til now...

Hi to 2010...

It has been a super hectic life in the past few months for me..and now i have some quiet time to blog out some updates

It's just crazy from stressing to hit target every month,handling some side business for my boss..to getting our new house done..(yep, we're moving in together real soon...but not getting married yet)..and erm..new car...new responsibilities...bla bla bla..Even catching up with frens lately consumed a hell lot of my time..(can't deny that they made most of my days). Thanks guys for keeping my life balanced between work n play.

Seeing danielle get married brings tears to my eyes..it was the highlight of 2009..it gets too emotionally/touched seeing your closed ones stepped up to a diff stage of life and I'm so happy for her. Wish her nothing but the best~ Sorry to all the jimuis that we hadn't have enough time to really catch up but i'm sure we'll have the chance again someday..miss u all already.

10 days holidays and tomoro i'll be back to work..really lazy to go back tho..i havent have any rest yet and 10 days had passed in just a blink of an eye.

I need rest ahhhhhh..sigh

Possessed

As i have got nothing to eat for lunch, i might as well post up this story as a warning to my frens..

A few days back when i was in kl with my parents, my neighbor which is quite close to my mom called and asked if she could drop by my house as she have something urgent to tell her

So, my mom told her that we were in KL and will be back by the next day

Then, she came on Monday night with her daughter X, saying that X have not been sleeping for a few nites and her behavior have totally changed since then. When i saw her, i had chicken skin all over. X was a well mannered, hardworking and smart student and now desperately looking for job so that she could pay for her little sis' tuition fee in Uni

One day when she came back from (i dunno where, maybe gym) she acted like a different person. All she did whole day was just stare at people with her big rounded eyes and bites her teeth so hardly that her lips and nails turn blue. She will not answer you when you call her and she ask the same questions over and over again and not to mention, a lil bit rude too. She would sit and stare at her younger sis in the middle of the night

Her parents freaked out and decided to bring her over to ask for help in a temple. She was told not to leave the temple at the moment and was required to stay there for a nite until the "ceremony" is over. According to them, "something" went in her body and her soul is not there for now. While she was there, she would not stop banging the table and chairs as she demanded her parents to bring her out of the temple. Nobody were strong enough to control her behavior. They have no choice but to bring her back and while they were on their way back, X kept on saying that her life is miserable and she didn't wanna go home. She then ask her parents to bring her to M'cca 9th Floor (the place that is very famous for suicidal case). Well of coz they did not do that. They brought her home, sometimes she'll be ok and sometimes not.

Her parents are gonna bring her to the ceremony in temple again. Let's pray that she's gonna be ok soon

What i'm gonna say is i used believe that if you did not do anything wrong that upset "that something" then you will not be bothered by "them" . Now, it looks like i was wrong. "It" could be anywhere, anytime and it can happen to anybody. So, i just wanna warn anyone that is reading this, pls be careful and try not to go back too late at nite. It's best that you seek guidance and protection from the ONE that you believed in.

gone~~~

Everythin's gone....

Good or Bad...all gone

Right and Wrong..gone

Together and Apart...gone

Happy and Sad..gone

Fun and Excitement...gone

Time and Effort..gone

Truth and Lies...gone

Care and Feelings..gone

Sweat and Tears...gone

Heart and Soul..gone~~~

i miss..............

You ar.....

Where will you be?

lazy lar

Juz some photos before the competition which will be in FB anyway

Random~

Here's what i did lately on my free time~~


1st, a beautiful day on a brown sunny beach


I wonder who's this crazy woman that washes her legs with beer


It's ah kiu


Hehehe

2nd, celebrating my aunt's b'day

Mom,Dad and sis




Aunts, me n sis



Sis,aunt n uncle



The supporting characters


For the main character


Cute, happy face~~

3rd, was goin pure every Sat nite
the pic's all in fb (lazy to post here d and we seldom take pics there)
......but now no meaning goin there d.. :(

4th, routine yamcha session
no pics too coz don wanna leave any unwanted evidence...muahahhah
cutting down yc session as rui's not around can actually save money for the weekend :P

5th, jamming time..
Just usual practice and meeting sessions

6th, still waiting for somethin to happen..something big maybe~

about to change~~

i've never try to even mention bout my work or my company here before bcoz all this while i feel its not something to be proud of working there...except for meeting my collegues everyday for 6 days a week. they're really my motivation throughout all this 6 months. Everyday's party day with them around and certainly life will not be as fun and as funny anymore when i leave.

and now, after half a year, i finally got a much better offer and i've decided to take it. For surely i will not be able to speak of how much will i miss them and i wont let them know. let the memories be how its supposed to be will surely make things more beautiful. : )

New job, new life starts on monday and i'm not alone as rui will also be walking the same road as me on the exact date but in a diff location. proud dat she's strong enough to leave her comfy home. haha. Wish her all the best!

No reason...juz feel relax lookin at this pic..

sometimes im really desperate for u to read my updates and ask me whole lots of questions like u used to, but i know its impossible..and its also impossible for me to know urs. anyway, juz hope dat u're happy out there, u sleep well and u'll get wat u always wanted. i listen to the song n i think of u. times when both of us still matters.

Hat3

to be me.....

Can't be explained...haih~~

4 again..

It's 4.30 in the morning now and im right here sitting typing my blog.

Duno why dat i'm having the emo sickness again today...for the entire day..so bad, that my tears nearly burst out when i'm having discussion with my collegue..suddenly the feeling feels so unusual to me since i've no time to be emo for quite a long time.

Maybe i know that things are gonna change for the better for both of us after dragging for 2 years plus. Can't believe how time passed so quickly and now i'm afraid of the thoughts of never seeing ... again or not knowing where will ... be and what ... is doin, as all this while i'm quite sure bout ... whereabouts.

It's no doubt that i've let go of ... since i started working and when ... gave me a last hug yesterday, i still did not feel anything until ... msg me and tell me thanks. Not sure why, probably for the last, long waited hug.

Now that both of us have left that place dat seems very much like a home then, memories of us over there will soon be erased from our thoughts...
i know that we have to move on sometimes but i admit that i really hate changes and will take very long time to cope with it.

i try to have a good time round my frens tonite and i'm glad dat they've been accompanying me for the better or worst.