stupid or naive?

For doing the same thing even though u know its wrong and it'll be going nowhere?

For some time, i really realized my mistake and promise myself not to fall in another trap ever again..

but then i let it start all over again willingly without stopping..

Hoping for happiness? maybe.

Or juz looking for excitement in such dull life of mine back then? probably.

Felt being used and then got dumped coz u're worthless anymore? very much.



It's a situation where im being cheated and im also the cheater!

A complicated thing~~

my mistake~~

Sorry for being a softie in dealing this.

Sorry for giving u hope that i'll change.

Sorry for letting u and the people dat have faith in me down.

Sorry...

Sorry for the commitments i have.

Sorry i cannot make u understand my life.

Sorry u cannot see my responsibilities.

Feeling like this~~

Juz like the feeling of writing a new post..

The urge to post something but have nothing much to write about its juz like the feeling to contact somebody but you have nothing to talk about...

So...to call or not to call?

To leave or not to leave Mlk? There's so many things that im gonna miss here..Everything's here and i my heart will never be there.

Pls tell me what to do...

Dont wanna be alone!

emo one!

How many drops of tears i've cried?
.Uncountable.

How frustrated i get from waiting?
.Unmeasurable.

How emo am i facing this situation?
.U Don't Know.

How i differentiate between whats right and wrong of the things i've done?
.I Never.

How i deal with this problem?
.Cups of Poison i down every chance i have.

For Display Only

4 in the morning..

2 days in a row we went home at 4am, looking like a shit face and smelling like we've never been bathed...haha (abit dramatic)

why?

believe me...nothing but a bad reason..



Yes...we drank again...

Actually it was juz a normal outing at 12am..but bcoz of emo-ness filled our head and heart, we decided go to jetty and drink the hell out of us..

We (or i should say them) sit there till 4 to wait for ppl to come and eventually rape and rob us..haha...juz kidding..but i'm glad i'm still alive.

The next nite was a b'day party at this club which i don wanna mention here..
It was the b'day of d bassist of Terra Firma.

The nite started quite boringly bcoz all we can see there is those girls wearing panties n bra,singing and dancing all over d place and get paid hell alot of monayyyyyy...

After dat we were moved into a Karaoke room which was quite fun la...
I dunno why the time fly so quickly that day that we din even realize it was already 4am when we drag the "drinking queen" out of the club.

I'm glad we're sober for 3 days now..after 4 days of drinking..

What's life?