pleasant holidae..

Yesterday i managed to catch Will P. on his Malaysia tour in MP...it's not that i'm a fan..well, juz accompanying my sis.

Will and Myfm dj..whatever his name is.


cute?



still ok lar~~~

and todae, my family i went to Pavilion for a 1 day trip..Can't deny that i lurveeeee to shoppe...esp shopping in Pavilion..heheh..

Lunch at TGIF...hmm...pricey pricey..


Well, nothing much i can buy today maybe bcoz i need to accompany them to do their shopping as well...Quite tiring actually coz we walked quite abit just now...so..

this is fat face on da way back to mlc after a loooong day..


hehehe...nitez..

hmmm..........~~

Looking at the right dog at the right time and at the right mood just makes me feel like i'm over the moon..

POODLES..






HAVANESE..







AMERICAN COCKER SPANEILS



Never fail to melt my heart...When can i have one?

Waiting~~

All this waiting is making me quite frustrated...how long am i suppose to wait?

Sigh, what can i do?

Sometimes i feel so lonely to be in this situation..everyone seems so unaproachable..even if they are approachable, they wouldn't understand.

How will my future be like? The only thing i know its dat i can't give up.

I just pray that i will not wait for long..

Gdnite.

Can't speak..

One of the greatest drama i've watched so far..

誰人無得到一切的渴求
> Seoi yan mou dak dou yat chai dik hot kau
誰人無攻於心計的理由
> Seoi yan mou gung yu sam gai dik lei yau
平凡人生天真過後要怎麼走
> Ping faan yan sang tin jan gwo hau yiu jam mo jau
如何從委曲中再相信人
> Yu ho chung wai kuk jung joi seung seun yan
誰無狂想不可告人
> Seui mou kong seung bat ho gou yan
難忘時光必須散蓆留下我
> Naan mong si gwong bit seui saan jik lau ha ngo
快樂時抱著時那是至死不渝朋友
> Faai lok si pou jyu si na si ji sei bat yu pang yau
決裂時你為何以為再拖一會
> Kyut lit si nei wai ho yi wai joi to yat wui
還有時候
> Waan yau si hau
即是多風光都要清醒
> Jik si do fung gwong dou yiu ching sing
有幾多掌聲也是孤清
> Yau gei do jeung seng ya si gu ching
你只可聽到我大笑聲
> Nei ji ho teng dou ngo daai siu sing
哭泣也未放聲
> Huk ya ya mei fong sing
講不出聲講不出聲
> Gong bat cheut seng gong bat cheut seng
任由自己半夜清醒
> Yam yau ji gei bun ye ching sing
我只不過偶爾受了驚
> Ngo ji bat gwo ngau yi sau liu geng
於是才遺忘本性
> Yu si choi wai mong bun sing
誰人能甘心一世一個人
> Seui yan nang gam sam yat sai yat go yan
如何才得資格可愛人
> Yu ho choi dak ji gaak ho oi yan
誠惶誠恐只得我是明白我
> Sing wong sing hung ji dak ngo si ming
baak ngo

21

I've been keeping myself real bz after convo..

I tidy up and painted my room for the entire day on monday..

and on tues...as i thought i came close to getting something i'm interested in doing, i got con to do something else which i've never ever thought i'll even have the chance in experiencing it...well...lets say its a lesson for me to learn.. At the end of the day, i did gain some experience don't i?

on weds,i did nothing much...went to a friend's house to get the chords of some songs that we'll play for jamming session this sun, went shopping and drinks with the gals..

Today, i went for a movie..it's called 21.. It was a good story..

there's this genious, BEN that has got in to harvard but he has got no money to pay for the tuition fees of 300k and he has to tell a story to convince the principle so that the principle would give him the scholarship. By then, he was just a "no life" student that do not have any unforgettable life experiences bcoz what he does was just study and work. As he was in his class, he got discovered by a lecturer that then asked him to join his "black jack" team which consist of 4 other students where they practise cards counting for that game. they would then go to Vegas every weekend to play. 50% of the money they win, they'll have to give to their lecturer, Micky. so, as time goes by, BEN and his team are getting quite wealthy where the get to experience the "no limit" spending on clubs, girls, suites, limo, shopping etc and has successfully collected 315k for his tuition fee. however, ben's best frens back in boston realized the changes in him and decided to go on their own way without him.. that week he lost 200k of Micky's money but micky insist that he has to find a way to pay him back that lum sum of money. then he decides to go on with his team without micky guiding them. After awhile, he got caught counting cards and got beaten up..and by the time he got back to boston, micky took everything from him, his money for the fee and let him fail the subject so he cant gradute from the diploma course he has been doing. So he then confronted micky and persuade him to play again with his team for 1 last time.This time, they'll both play as a big player so that they can double up their winnings. As they were winning big money, the casino's authorities came out and started to chase them because they're performing the card counting method again to win those money. they then arrested micky for that's the man that they've been looking for many many years. the authority then get ben back to his studies bacause at the end of the day, this was a plan made up by the authority and ben so that they can get to micky.

Lastly, ben went back boston with nothing but this story to tell the principle why he deserves the harvard scholarship.

Maybe my version of story sucks..If u have the chance, watch it before this show stops showing...

gdnite!

Finally~~~~~~~

Hmmm.......what a tiring day...

My family and i woke up 5am in the morning today only because there's 1 reason...that its to celebrate the ending of a beautiful yet fairy tales story path...and a beginning of a realistic and life torturing path...

So many "fa"........

It's hard to describe how i feel today...i can only say...full of surprises....

finally.........

And i really wanna thank them from the bottom of my heart for what they've sacrifice just to give me this surprise...only u guys can make the scene so.........so..........erm......."gay". Hahaha..nola...touching was the word i was trying to say. (ASK U ALL DON COME, STILL WANNA COME, AIYOOOOOOO)...hahahah..sorry ppl...only they understand this phrase. Only through them i learn that in this world, the most important ppl in my life besides my family n jon, is them..the ppl that care..u know who u r...
std procedure ah this fri...every fri!! can't wait to see u all...muaks muaks..



by aunty n her anak!


And to my dearest Jimuis...sadly only 2 make it to the event today, i'm happy enough that i'm still in their heart. What u gave me today, is 1 of the most special thing that i've ever received. Thanks!
till this day, i still miss u all like hell ah!! i know things will never be the same again but our memories will remain forever...


by lin lin



by moi

And thanks to everyone that has made their effort to come to my convo today....family n him, love u guys alot..

Till we finally meet again.......gdnite!

Relieved? or not?

I took a breath of fresh air when i walked out of his room. I din know it would be this easy when i finally opened my gold filled mouth and tell him what i wanted, he understood immediately. And i worry that situation will be different to the stage where i suffocate when i took my very first step in the office this morning.

It's a surprise for me, not to say, everybody else...maybe its for the best. Even until this minute, it's hard to believe that i've made such decision..

Whatever or however it is, i'm glad it's finally over..i dont have to face my fear anymore coz i ran away from it. Sooooooo useless...sigh...

where am i?

Last nite, at yamcha session, after those deep silent thoughts being voiced out, i really feel that i need to get a new job with better benefit...or lets say, salary!

This morning, i feel like hell to get up and drag myself to office..i don't know why i keep on thinking that this job isn't meant for me. Maybe it really is...just thinking bout travelling itself makes me weak.
So lonely.....to be alone.
The silent journey back and forth..nobody directs me, nobody tells me where to go, where to turn, nobody plans the destination and nobody takes lunch with me anymore..i'm all on my own.

At first, i'm all excited bout it coz i'm the boss now..finally, nobody tells me what to do anymore. I hate to admit that i'm only 40% right. The rest of the percentage i will say...go to loneliness and insecurity of being alone in an unfamiliar land. I am Scared!

I've hid this words in my heart so deep inside that i would not even tell my dearest ones....but now, i have to admit that... I'm actually scared!

Sigh........gdnite ppl.....i wish tomoro never comes...

when there's no difference between right and wrong...

What do u do when u know what u're doing is wrong but by all means seems so right to u? its a miserable world we're living in...

It has been almost a year now that i've successfully corrected myself in this situation but now...when i thought it was gone,it came back! hitting me at the right spot just like before...it makes me feel so right doing that particular wrong thing...

What do i do now? Am i able to ward off this feeling this time? Am i able to continue to ignore u like i used to forced myself to? or should i say u forced me to? can i still believe in u now? i dunno....

I wonder why u still wanna talk about it after u've decided to abandon me after all this while...sigh...what u've said and done, i dont know which is the truth anymore..

The nite is still.......but my heart's shaking..